3 of clubs

 

Numerical Value: 3
Key Concepts: Growth, production, organizing

Where the 3 of hearts can be a card of all play and little work, the 3 of clubs can be the opposite: work and little play. It is the card of the busy bee, one who is handling his or her business. You know how at work you have that sweet spot where you are in this lovely mellow hum of focus resulting in a very productive day? That is the nature of the 3 of clubs in working situations. In love, it may indicate working with other’s outside the relationship on a task, a lover that is focused on work, or a couple working on building an empire. In terms of wealth, it may indicate doing that which is needed to ensure financial stability in the long run, kind of like a side hustle. On its worst side, it indicates that you’re not doing enough in the situation to accomplish your tasks and goals, whether it be financial, at work, or in love.

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Marriage Talismans for Sale

 

 

 

 

 

I’ve made 4 pairs of talismans for couples who are either engaged or married. There are three statements of intent sigilized on the talisman: That patience, diligence, and tolerance are cultivated, that husband and wife coexist lovingly, healthily, and in sobriety, and that gardens and plants yield a bountiful harvest. I also asked Juno, Ceres, and Iris to further bless the talismans and bless the relationships. The Mercurial markings are present to encourage communication and healing between the couple. Each talisman has a matching companion as shown above, and they are about the size of business cards (approximately 2 in x 3 in). On the back, there is a verse from the Song of Solomon as well as the alchemical symbols for Jupiter an Venus. They were made by hand using water color paper, water color, and ink.  I’ve only made 4 this time around, and one has already been sold. If you would like one, let me know and I’ll make more 🙂 You can get your pair for just $30.

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The Major Petite Mort

As one can guess from the title, this is a mandala created with fertility, sex, and love in mind. Developed from a seed sigil, the minor Petite Mort, this mandala is magical and created with Venusian and Lunar components: when one meditates on it from center out, it will assist one in addressing matters and hangups relating to love and sex to the end of having a fulfilling orgasm. The imagery budding from the center breaks down from the confinements attributed to sex as merely the interaction of the physical, and as the focus broadens from the center and into the edges of the mandala, the sexual act is removed from its limited physical expression to that of creation and divine love.

Within the mandala are subtle representations of the male and female genitalia, and towards the outer portions of the mandala are images of fruit which symbolize fertility and the higher virtues associated with sex:

Blueberries: Protection, safety, and preservation.
Raspberries: Female fertility and health.
Mangos: Divine and cosmic love.

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The Healing Pressure Mandala

Peer pressure is often considered to have negative effects on individuals, but did you know that your behaviors are heavily influenced by those who you value the most, regardless? This is a magical mandala is designed for those who may be a little difficult and hard headed in changing their lifestyle for the better. The seed sigil was made with the intention of creating social pressure which would encourage one to make better changes in their lives and avert unnecessary illnesses. This mandala is also associated with Mercurial energies, particularly Gemini, to emphasize focus on one’s well being. As one focuses on the center and allows their gaze to extend outward, one will notice the following imagery and symbols:

Eights: Number affiliated with Mercury.
Caduceus shapes: Another symbol of Mercury with links to Mercurial deities who rule healing.
Kudzu: Rapid change and growth, preservation, pressure
Ears: Receptivity and listening
Spider Lily: Symbol for death
Bat: Change, night time and subconscious
Cross: pivotal change of great importance

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Healing Pressure Sigil

This sigil is designed to encourage one to make important changes in their life by taking a somewhat different approach: through one’s social circle. It works as positive peer pressure, where instead of luring an individual towards engaging in unhealthy habits, it applies pressure on the user to make beneficial changes to their lifestyle to circumvent negative and unhealthy outcomes.

3 of hearts

Numerical Value: 3
Key Concepts: Surprise, conception, a third, joy

The 3 of hearts and the 3 of spades have similar associations of a third party interfering, especially in matters of love, but with the 3 of hearts, sometimes the intervention is desired, like at parties. In love it represents the beauteous aspect of a thing, and the feelings of excitement and butterflies swarming the stomach, and flirtations. In work it can represent a helpful hand with a tendency of play before work. In financial matters, it is a card that can lead towards excess spending or a tendency towards luxury and things that make one feel like $1000. This card involves surprises! You will have an inking of what’s going on, but you are likely to be pleasantly pleased by what you don’t notice at first.

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2 of spades

Numerical Value: 2
Key Concepts: Disagreements and defense

I am almost inclined to attribute this as the Hermit equivalent of the playing cards. In social relations the 2 of spades can indicate an inability to connect with or harmonize with group members, resulting in either retreating or defense. It can refer to one who is tight lipped, not willing to talk or share information. In terms of general operations, it can indicate things being halted and stopped. Though arguments are a possibility for this card, I have found that the 2 of spades centers around issues of silence and withdrawal.

The 2’s in particular can emphasize their own numerical value in a reading. This can be very helpful to know when doing math with the cards. I’ll talk a little more about this once we hit the 7’s.

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2 of diamonds

Numerical Value: 2
Key Concepts: receptivity, payments

The 2 of diamonds is a relatively simple card. In readings it can often represent matters which may not have a solid ground for them; they may be simple thoughts or fantasies as detailed by surrounding cards. On the other hand, it can also represent a certain level of dexterity in terms of artistry and handling shifting affairs. In love, it keeps relationships platonic. In monetary affairs it represents exchanging money and material items. With spades, it can signify that certain expressions or payments may be rejected or ignored.

The 2’s in particular can emphasize their own numerical value in a reading. This can be very helpful to know when doing math with the cards. I’ll talk a little more about this once we hit the 7’s.

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That Special Balancing Act

If you didn’t know, yes, there is a “hater” problem. No, I’m not imagining it. No, I’m not wrong.

I have a couple of things I regularly have to contend with. I have to be strategic in practically every religious situation I encounter. I have to fight the whole racial black vs white dichotomy relentlessly, with which also comes questioning and second guessing my worth as an intelligent black woman. Speaking of woman, let’s not forget the fact that I’m a woman who has to balance expectations to look a certain way as both a black woman within the black community, and a black woman operating within white society. The response to everything I cultivate can be summed up in some kind of statement like this: “You arrogant (black) woman/witch! Know your place! You can’t do that while looking the way you do! You’re making problems where no problems exist!” 

This narrative plays out sadly in both my personal and impersonal relationships.

For example, one day I and my family were visiting my grandmother, and as usual, I was updating her on things that were going on in my life. I had told her about some of the annoyances I was experiencing in city life, but explained how I tempered the insecurity with the confidence I gained in belly dancing. I asked if she wanted to see, and I got a quick and curt “No, thank you” from her, and from across the room a mild look of disgust with a strain to hide amusement from my brother. No, I’m not Barbie doll thin. I’m a bit on the curvaceous side with a bit of extra weight to spare, so clearly I defy what is associated with a “normal” dancer of any sort. It wasn’t until weeks later when she was visiting and my mother vouched for my belly dancing that she saw me dance.

Here’s another interesting example involving a stranger:

On day three of Ramadan 2017, I got into a terrible argument with a black Muslim man who tried to convert me into Islam under spiritually castrating terms. Of course, I also caught hell for being a woman, refusing to submit under his authority, AND for being a magical practitioner. What I found ironic was that because he perceived me as being blasphemous, he tried to use powerful names of Allah against me, which actually, little did he know, actually feels really pleasant to me. He told me to recite the phrase which translates to “There is no God but God,” assuming that I didn’t already believe in a unity of all, and also assuming that this would somehow paralyze me. Meanwhile, during Ramadan, even though its not perfect, I did get into a prayer habit. I followed the rules of the season to the best of my ability I fasted from sunrise to sunset. I stopped fasting when my period came. I avoided excess travelling during the day. I abstained from sex and masturbation. I steadily began to learn to read Arabic. I have memorized Al Faatiha in Arabic, using it in my ritual baths (of which I’ve blended wudhu, ablution, practices with my own bathing rituals). I was being taught Arabic words by spirits when I first woke up in the morning. Clearly, his assumption about me was incorrect. In the end, because of his volatility, saying “You have the spirit of a man and are as stubborn as a mule,” among other things that were actually pretty arrogant and demeaning, I chose to cease communication with him entirely. 

Though, little did he know, part of the reason behind my choosing to participate in Ramadan was to mute myself and address the very projective, Yang, masculine nature that I have. I was much more intimately aware of what I had perceived as a problem. Here’s a snapshot of the thoughts swirling through my head daily:

Maybe I am too assertive and that is why I can’t find a partner who operates within the mundane world but is compatible with me,” or “Am I not feminine enough? Do I not wear enough dresses? Is it bad that I find myself beautiful without make up?” I even thought “Maybe the issue is that I don’t allow myself to follow the ‘woman needs her man’ script, allowing men to take care of me as is expected…” and then I went back to the thoughts “Maybe I’m just not woman enough…”

I thought the solution to the problem would reveal itself if I allowed myself to be dependent for my needs, and instead focus on self development through God and his angels. Thus, I chose to delve in to the currents of the religion centered on submission, a religion that I discovered to be intimately tied to the lunar aspects of God: Islam. One Ramadan Tuesday afternoon I spoke with Kammael, an angel of Geburah, and he was quite abrupt with his message to me about my plans. “There’s nothing wrong with you. Actually more people need to do what you do and abandon the script and labels they use to define themselves.”

Even though divine message after divine message affirms this, I’m still coming to terms of who I am apart from the expectations of other people. I am indecisive and afraid to approach certain spiritual matters even though I have proven my spiritual authority time after time. I am afraid to dance and am afraid of other’s gaze upon my body, even though I like the way I look and feel as I move. In the end, the issue is confidence. For many, the confidence, potentials, and authority I have intimidates others. It threaten’s their world view. It threaten’s their creed and scripts which they hold dear.

I’m sure you’ve also been asked “Who are you to…?” or hear the criticism “You can’t do that, that isn’t…!” What is really being said is “Why can’t I do that?” “How come you can do x but I cannot?”  People like me, and probably like you who are reading, act a lot like a window. We offer an opportunity for fresh air in a stale home for whoever is willing to open it, just by setting the example and being ourselves. As my apprentice says, “You give second chances and new opportunities for anyone worth a damn who is able to see it and pursue it.” That which is natural and that which is cultivated isn’t meant to be muted and locked in a jail cell. Neither I nor you don’t need to sacrifice the divine attributes given for a gross humility expected by peers; instead, just to cultivate confidence and temper it with love and respect for others.